Rip your onions in half

There are many different types of loves in the world. It all depends on the person and what they exactly mean to you.

The first love, of course, is that type you would want to get serious about and maybe date or marry. You act towards that person differently than others. You have a deep adoration and sensations that no one can fully explain, not even me, who has never actually did it with anyone so therefore not yearning for it. Intimacy probably feels different with different people, with the person you feel deep devotion for, I expect that it would be a warm one that is filled with burning passion and overflowing desire. But that's just a guess.

I also find that I have formed a brotherly love with someone. It can be a sisterly love with someone, too. You adore this person, and value thier opinions, yet you feel no deep temptations for them. You do hold hands, if you're like that, but you just know that you have only an adoration and nothing more, but it means alot to you.

One relationship with someone I have met within the past 3 months is really confusing to me. He is a very great friend, and I feel all but total adoration and devotion for him. But he is neither a boyfriend love to me, nor a brother love, and more than just a love, its just, weird. I would do anything for him, I'm sure, and I'm not going to name him, because he might read this blog, but I just wish I could explain my love and confusion. He is the type of person that you tell everything to and know that he'll never tell, but yet you can't ever let him know what you feel, or else things will go chaotic. You don't want a relationship farther than the one you have, but you do want him to know that you feel this way and are okay with this. I'm not going to tell him, though, never in a million years.